I think I found it..

Hi there!

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 18:50:56 GMT

Hi there!!

Im really glad to have found a Weight loss support group over here!

Months before, meaning last year hehehe, I started a weight loss program called Body Transformation at Golds Gym, you had your own diet, and own trainer 3 times a week, which was great, I changed my eating habits and became more healthy wise, my glucose dropped from 88 to 80 and cholesterol values also (my nutricionist said that If it where higher Ive wouldve developed diabetes!! I only lost 5 pounds, but my measurements went down like crazy, specially the abdominal area and 3% body fat.

These last days of December havent been so good on me, Ive felt very anxious, with a constant anxiety therefore over eating, or eating without hunger, I almost forgot the road I went through those 8 weeks, I wasnt starving, but it was tedious....waking up early, advoidid places to not feel anxious ect.
I currently weight 200 pounds and Im starting another Body Transformation this January, im going to keep on loosing this fat, get healhtier and stronger. It is a long road, but a soon as we start walking, we dont even look back to see how far we've come through, yes we've fallen, even taken 2 steps back, but we have to keep on walking to get where we want to be.

Best wishes to all!

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 18:21:53 GMT

This year lets be:

More God Thankful

A little more Bolder

More Awake

Ambitious

A little Selfish ( it never hurts to think more about ourselves instead of allways making gorund for others)

Lets be sexier or feel sexy

Reflect how you REALLY fell inside

Wear Bright Colors

Enjoy peace and quiet when everything seems to be boring

And let a Vampire Named Bill bite ya!

I hope all your dreams come true and that you achieve all your goals!

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 01:33:05 GMT

I JUST WANTED TO WISH MERRY XMAS TO EVERYONE!

I HOPE THAT ALL YOU WISHES COME TRUE ON THE YEAR THATS COMING

Back from nowhere

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 19:02:54 GMT

Where was her some of you may ask. But I was nowhere, I was right here...

These last 6 months havent been easy on me, but it really was a struggle that I had to go trhough to realize how strong I was, as you some of you know my grandmother died, then 3 months later, after constant praying, 2 months apart from my mom because she was tending her little brother, and another month of anguish and Hope in the Lord, my uncle died, he left in peace, Thank You Lord!

I was at a state where I had to make a desition take more charge of my life, be more awake and more decisive. So I made changes, started being more interested in my studies...

And Learn to love myself again...

Impossible is Nothing....Who perseveres Triumphs....If all these things I knew, why didnt I act sooner?
Because I wasnt interested, I didnt care at all....Therefore I changed, took care of myself, because NOONE was going to do it for me and thats a fact, In order to love others you have to love yourself.

I've become more healthy, lost weight and I'm going to keep at it, Ive just finished a weight loss program at the Gym and starting another one that begins in January, its not a new years resolution is a fact.

Learning to love myself allover again

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 15:35:04 GMT

I just happen to stumble myself into some truths " I wasnt loving myself,,,I am not reflecting how I feel inside"

Its mind blowing for me, because I had to struggle for two weeks..but now I know what I was lacking...self love.

BODY TRANSFORMATION

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 15:22:36 GMT

Ok, so I think everyone knows by now that Ive returned to gym and Ive sign into the BODY TRANSFORMATION PROGRAM!!

I HOPE I HAVE YOUR SUPPORT THANK YOU!

strange...

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 21:38:51 GMT

I feel soo strange, so like out of this world, I dont know...
Anyways these couple of days Ive been kinda fasting, but actually trying to have a meal a day even though whats healthy is eating 3 times day I know trust, its just Im trying accusumed my stomach to eat less and be more self control. Im only trying it for 5 days, and it's only been 2 days, it was kinda hard but Im doing it, well also its actually cleasing my organism and actually kinda making me "go regular" pardon! hehe

Lalala...see ya later...

In a romantic loop

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 19:09:38 GMT

Seriously Im on a loop right now!! Cant get enough of this couple!! My Om My!!

Here's a pic of them, but let me tell ya, its not from her real character in the telenovela (soapopera) , she's playing an actress and also being the lead ,

Its just I luv this guy! hehehe She's the one, on the right. Angelica Vale and the guy is Ernesto Laguardia. The telenovela is called Amigas y Rivales.

I feel soo anxious hahaha

Sat, 16 Aug 2008 19:59:24 GMT

Last night I spent it watching telenovela's on youtube, OMG! the memories, the angst hahahah I kinda missed that feeling. But there was a couple that I couldnt get enough of Nayeli/Ernesto....Im soo in love with Ernesto character, he's like prince charming with a cherry on top and chocolate strawberries on the side. Awww, and guess what he's like 48 right now wow!!

I think he is soo fine and he's just like wine gets better with time. I dont know, but he has the characteristic Im looking in a man. Hahah go figure. Ive really never been into the whole bad boy and never went through with that phase.

Really I cant wait to meet my Prince Charming! If you saw what I watch on youtube, you'll understand, its not because the way he looks, is the character he portraits careing, lovable,chirvalous,polite, patient! omg! such a catch, its virtually unbelivebable.

TeEn Abuse

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 04:25:54 GMT

Ok, so today I went out to do some erains with my aunt. Went to pick her up, then we tried to go to the store, but fate didnt want me to go there just today..I guess there was a reason for it..

So then we when to get some catering prices for my other aunt that's starting a new bussines, anyways, camed back home to pick up my sister, then off to our cousin's house, Its far, but its so beautiful, Im so glad for her...
Ok the whole evening ended as a family reunion, turns out 2 of my cousins where kick out of their house by their mother, and also that she's been abusing them, physicly and emotionally, allways yelling, shouting, scratching them (yes scratching) it turns out that today was the day evrerything blew out! the bomb exploted!! This thing didnt happen just today or this week, its been happening for years, its just that the main victim was my older cousin.

I respect her so much.....Omg! all the things that she's been suffering,,,her mom mistreating her, and hitting her, she has kicked her out of these houser many times so far, and today she got the courage to get her sister even though they all still lived in the house.

Tomorrow they will go to the P.D to make the complaint....

THE OLYMPICS!

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 23:33:13 GMT

Such a beautiful spectacle. The colors the scenery. Its soo overwhelming!!
It just show how beautiful and vast our world is, the different cultures, faces, smiles. Im so happy to see this, even thought I was supposed to be there hehehe. 4 years ago I said " Im going to save to go to China's Olympic, I remeber that day hehehe, but Im still here. At least Im watching it at home.

Im so joyous and so happy! Even though all over the world, there are struggles and wars, I think these days serve to apeace them, or at least to forget for a while about the frictions and harships. I feel as we are one with the world and that we are only human. Its about solidarity and being humble.

As I think most of you friends saw, everyone's wearing a very colorful outfit or uniform hahaha thats soo cute, and those delegations that are small walk with pride and joy, THATS THE SPIRIT!! I LUV THIS COMUNION, THIS INTEGRATION AND SHARING.

I will defenitely travel someday, I'll see the world, I will go to Canada.

Im waiting to see my country, which is Dominican Republic. GO DOMINICANA!!

Why is it that good dreams allways fall at the climax???

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 23:57:19 GMT

Yes, that does happen, and this dream was wayy to good to either forget it or not think about it...maaannn! Damn it!

Here's my dream:

" I was at a beach with a whole bunch of friends, though there were scattered around, anyways. I sat by a person, this person turns out to be a movie star or lets just call him an actor. Well..he had a beard but not those long grandpa beards or anything like that, he had the "its been 3 or 4 days since Ive shaved" look. So I spoke to him and at the same time pushing his shoulder back everytime I greeted him telling him " wao, I know you, I just love your work, your movies, series, ect" then he thought " hmm and I thought I was internationaly known"

At the beach there was a plane show, you know those kinda planes that do twirls on the air and stuff, so it happens that the plane that was moving was the same we camed to the beach (odd isnt it? Sine I live in a country where the beach its like maybe an hour away; Dominican Republic, Santo Domingo) and there I said: "Hmm I hope that isnt the plane I camed in" (Ohh but it was hehe)

Ok, so here the scene changes,

So its like a story, after that we becamed friends and stuff, but there was kinda of a tension between us, I had this big crush on him, my heart pumps so fast. There was a moment that we where doing something like organizeing or helping out, and I didnt like it when he had to move to another place to get something or leaving me alone (I felt sad), but he noticed and camed towards and helped me to get some stuff out of a SUV's trunk, we looked at eachother.

Ahh yeah I almost forgot we did kinda of a salut with our fingers, kinda like that on the image but we moved fingers that was at the part he noticed I felt lonely.

So here's another scene: Im at my old school, apparently I was grounded, I was near the principal's office. I was laying on the floor and was dragging myself towards the exit, I see a friend and asked him if he could see the principal near or moving, he said he's just behind you (shitt hehehe) I stood up and faced him and he said; " Yes I saw you, there's something thats been distracting you lately, I know that the cause is that you have a boyfriend, is or is it not, we both know the truth . ( I was like :O, and the truth was I had one and it was the same guy at the beach) I stood then near the gallery , the principal went back to his office (Btw my school used to be a mansion soo heheh thats why) I was so scared about a scolding or what would happen, so I turn to my right and the friend was gone, then I look to my front waiting for someone to pick me up, it turns out that a very hot looking guy in my dad's car, I couldnt help noticed that it was Chris Evans OMG!! (but in my dream universe he's someone else heheh with is face and body hahaha) he passed by the entrance with the windows down, but he couldnt see, but I could him, but I was too afraid to shout. then he moved along the way to park at the next corner, I knew that he would wait for me, but I still had to make him now that I was there, that he couldnt leave. Thankfully a friend of mine was near me and I called him and told him, that a company's chauffer camed to pick me up on my dad's car, to let him now that I was here. BUT I WAS SOO SAD AND SCARED, I KNEW MY FRIEND WOULD TELL HIM, BUT I FELT HEPLESS SINCE I THINK I COULDNT GET OUT OF SCHOOL EVEN THOUGH CLASSES WERE OVER, AND THEN I TURNED MY FACE AWAY TO START TO CRY.

And thats when I woke up!! WTFF!! In my Utopian dream's ending this is what is suppose to happen: I KEPT ON CRYING, BUT HE ENTERED SCHOOL AND WENT TO GET ME AND WE WENT FAR FAR AWAY IN THE CAR TOWARDS THE HORIZON. THE PERFECT ENDING THAT WOULDVE BEEN!

AWWW I feel much better now. hehehe... I just hope I find a great guy like him someday....

Ok so apparently we had somethin

I FEEL AWFUL

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 19:53:31 GMT

DAMN IT!! EVERYTHING WENT TO HELL RIGHT NOW! I WAS SUPPOSE TO GO TO CANADA NEXT MONTH, BUT GUESS WHAT?!!! ALL THE PAPERS THAT I NEED HAVE BECOME A HASSLE! MEANING THAT UNIVERSITY REFERENCES TAKES ABOUT A WEEK, THE I NEED THE BANKING REFERENCES, THAT GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH IS THAT AND SO ON...THIS TOTALLY SUCKS! SUCKS AND SUCKS! I DONT KNOW WHAT I'LL DO NOW!! I DONT WANT TO BE STUFF HERE, IN THIS FREAKING PLACE!!

I WAS SUPPOSE TO TRAVEL, MEET NEW PLACES AND CULTURES BUT NOOOO......

ANOTHER THING...TODAY ITS BEEN A MONTH OF MY GRANDMOTHERS DEATH

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TO CANADIAN FRIENDS! NEED HELP!

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 15:11:52 GMT

HIII TO ALL MY CANADIAN FRIENDS THERE'S A POSSIBILITY I MIGHT BE GOING TO CANADA THIS SUMMER, WELL NEXT MONTH, SO I WAS LOOKING FOR SOME INFO ABOUT THE COUNTRY, AND SOME SORT OF FINANCE GUIDING..I MEAN WHAT CAN I DO, TO LETS SAY 10 CANADIAN DOLLARS AS AN EXAMPLE, OR WAS A GOOD AMOUNT OF MONEY TO TRAVEL OVER THERE!

THANK YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLUEJULIE!

Its been good so far..but Im feeling sick

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 12:58:30 GMT

So last week wasnt that bad actually, but last night I meet up at last with my best friend at place to watch someone sing, she wanted me to meet "her singer", well let me tell you he's a singer alright! Its was a lovely evening...though for a monday night it kinda suck trying to enjoy oneself, knowing all the things I still have to do for this weekend! This is rush week before finals, Ive got essays and exams due!

I cant wait to get away!

A bit of a change

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 15:48:03 GMT

Went through here and I really thought my LJ needed a change and I think its more me now, plus with a bit of an attitude. Anyways, Imany places but I never do the effort to go, last week I was invited to a baby shower, m feeling better now, next week is the last one of the semmester then finals come. So yesterday went to the salon followed by a long afternoon night at university. I just wish I could see myself in the future in my profession..this year has been a hard one for me.

Ive been invited to many places and Ive never made the effort to go, for instance last week I was invited to a babyshower and a Youths Cult at church and nowhere. I dont feel good about myself thats the truth...I barely go out, I moope around seeing pictures of my friends on Fbook and wish I could be there...but thats my own fault...

At last I made plans with my best friend its been months since Ive seen her, really..I hope to have pictures of tonight to show...

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 04:17:11 GMT

THANKS EVERYONE FOR THEIR COMMENTS AND SUPPORT!

Tomorrow is the burial....Now my grandma is in peace and well!! My mom and dad can be at peace and enjoy a bit more their life like my grandmother wouldve wanted to. Specially since their 25th anniversary is comming. T o all of you thanks for your support.

My Grandmother just died...

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 06:36:07 GMT

My Grandma, just died a couple of hours ago...She died in peace, and I think that she waited for me to arrive to leave, even though she was entering the eternal sleep. I dont know what to feel right now...maybe its because Ive already cryed before like my last post..remember??

At last my grandma is not just laying in her bed, she's now with God and His Eternal love, I know shes happy...I just cant believe it through....Ive never seen a person dying, their limbs getting cold, and sking going all pale and how easily death its seen on their faces...not because their dead, no, you know...when you see that noones there and that not the same body it once was.. you get me? Its like who is this person? I know you are not there...but where are you? Death is the big phylosphical question and actually the first problem that came to man's mind.

Why do we die? why did I die? Where does our soul go? Faith in God reassures all this grief and uneasiness....Well tomorrow its the funeral and the burial its on wednesday at 10 a.m.

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 05:43:34 GMT

Im soo freaking bored right now! I kinda got the most of the weekend! But what can I say?? It is just not the same without friends...isnt it?! Well I figured out that I had to live too and enjoy myself a bit more. Its incredible how one forgest about oneself, because of allways thinking about others. REALLY its become a habit! but Im quitting it A.S.A.P!!

4 more weeks till vacation and havent heard a peep from the travel agency... I really need this trip..if it gets too expensive then Im heading to Canada!

Lately Ive been having dreams with a guy I used to like...what does this mean? Hes my best friend besides he's half way off the world..
Everything has been... I dont know..making me feel uneasy...I just want this semester to be over, so I can figure out some things.. just that.

LATER....!!

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 05:09:11 GMT

where is my drive?? Hmm where is it? Where's the will and the desire?! I have all the oportunities in the world!! Ive got to grasp them...

Sun, 08 Jun 2008 21:07:14 GMT

I think my grandmother is dying...Im scared and sad,and angry... I wish I knew how to save her..I wish I knew how.
Right now she is being attended by my mom and the maid... she's too skinny, a c ouple of nights before she had a fever, she needs an oxygen tank to breath....I was helping out, her foot had an old wound and it began to bleed, I think because her feet are swollen...

She wasnt this bad before, because of a negligence...she feel down from the bed, she got a bump in her head, that was what damage her...that was what put her in this state,,,,

Some people are so senseless and so stupid towards the ederly, that is what we become, but that journey dosent have to be sickened or awful or sad, or bad...It should be a wonderful and happy journey...I just went to cry a moment a go...i kinda feel better but a bit sore..

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 02:24:47 GMT

This year Ive got so many plans..well actually I want to go to Europe this year, at least France, if I cant go to France with d' Alliance Francaise then Im leaving on a tour! Seriously I have to think more about myself...Ive really growned this couple of months--and just trying to live! :D

So little to do and soo much time!

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 18:16:55 GMT

I dont know..why...Im not getting readyt to go out! cuz I have to do some thingsl....ok.,...when I get back from class I'll tell the story.

Im going to make it

Sun, 25 May 2008 19:51:43 GMT

Ive been busy with wiI th law school, Im a 3rd year student now, and next year God willing I'll be graduating, well by the end of the year I hope.

Right now , my grandmother is really sick...they had to bring her oxygen and give her a serum...Im really sad about this, I feel so impoted, I wish I was a med student or something, trying to make her feel better....sometimes I think Im afraid of what may happen but I have to be realist and optimistic at the same time.

I think Ive growned stronger from everything that has happened, school work, new friends and new experiences, even though Im really sadden, I am stronger and more focused than before.

Among these sad news, I will be traveling to Europe on August, to France or Italy, Ill se what m y coursing options are...So I'll keep on fighting and becoming stronger.

Each Day! This moment is for me!!

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 05:14:36 GMT

I cant believe I feel like this...like....noo, not really its like!! Just shup! MyGod!! Its like its all coming back to me now...and that anger,angst...Its just makes me feel soo weak!! WTF! Did I have to tell that girl which I thought was my friend, that I had a crush on her bf, even before, before, so muchh before they got togther! even before I meet her! I thought things could be different but nooo...!! She had to tell her bf about it, in other terms, my friend, whom has changed dramatically with me! Wtf!! Who cares anyway?? I thought!! But I kinda do...well like at the moment!!

And how did: ""I think you look like Clark Kent!" ""Dont worry I luv Clark Kent" meant a declaration of love, for Godsake! Noo!! mann!! I was making a joke!! God not again! everytime a guy thinks I like him, they think Im going to stick to them like a tick to a dogs tail!! Nooo!! He's a friend I was joking!! I bored!! Im tired!! WTF!!

GET OVERTHEMSELVES....PLUS RIGHT NOW...NO FRIEND IS HELPING..AT ALL.......!!